It’s 5:38 am and I was really trying to get that last hour or two of sleep. The way look at it, I’ve earned it. But now comes the part we ALL must face. What kind of day do we want? The choice is made with our head still on the pillow. Yes, I’m in the middle of a dog fight with cancer and thank God, I’m winning. But that’s not the hard part, at least for me. The hard part or challenging part is to find true joy, peace and contentment in every situation. I get scare and sometimes I wake up at night thinking the worst. Then I’m reminded that they are some things in my control. Those are my thoughts! I choose to lay in bed, listen to my wave machine that relaxes me and do some reading (all positive) till I wake up or dose off for a bit.
It’s amazing the power you can harness by combining positive thinking, expectation and faith. I sense myself moving from being weighted down by the effects cancer has had on me, my family, loved ones to a blessed release that God will guide me down the right path. I don’t have to force anything nor do I have to manipulate things to “work out”. Our job is to wake up and say, “God, I’m showing up. What is it you want me to do”. Then find the joy in doing that. It’s all in how we look at our morning and day. I want to be excited again about living and believe me I am!
I once read where we can curse a rose bush for its thorns or never see the thorns because of the beauty of the blooms. Our choice. Just like today.